Tuesday, 30 January 2007

Chapter 6: sadness

Ah, it is truely lovely to witness a miracle, this does depend on how you define a miracle however. I like to think of my gran as one,growing up her father(my great grandad) left the house for another woman, and because he always kept in touch with my gran, this made her unpopular in the house making life hard for her as a teenager. She married her first love when she was 21, when going to war he never returned, neither did her brother. Later on she met Tom (my grandad) and had three children with him - Robert, Ian and Kenneth (my dad) Years later Tom and Kenny both got sick and died within three months of each other, leaving my Gran without a husband and son. But every single day she gets down on her knees and thanks god for the shoes on her feet and the roof over her head, and she smiles and laughs and brightens everyones day. What a lady.
However, there are situations in the world where a miracle needs to happen and it doesn't, people are in pain every second of every hour every day, to think about it constantly only makes you depressed but I often wonder who is doing something about it.
I realise how lucky I am when something happens to me, something just as simple as getting ill and I am taken care of, I get the medicine I need and the attention required, and I think about the people who have no one to care for them.
There have been amazing people to walk the land, people who are self-less and brave, people who have made a difference through peace and the majority of these people have met an end with someone who didn't like it.
As long as human beings exist love will continue , but pain will also.
We are complex beings and sometimes I wonder about God, I wonder if he looks at the world and sighs, and I think about the flood and wonder how bad it was for him to do that, are things that bad now? Perhaps not, It is a tragic person who focuses on the bad but a foolish person who forgets it.
What will it take for the world to take a step back and hold hands? Global warming, perhaps. Ah no, the rich will be the priority to protect I hear from a sad looking news reporter the other night - glad to see we are standing together.
I suppose the simple version of this is to say 'get on with your own life and count yourself lucky' but isn't everyone doing that? so everyone is looking after themselfs who is looking after the lonley?
I do not understand politics and I don't pretend to, I don't understand the trade system, I don't understand maths and my spelling isn't great, I don't have a job and in the grand scheme of things I am no more than the smallest speck. Maybe I will be listened to one day and maybe people will realise and understand what I say - I do believe in kindness and I believe in forgiveness I guess I probably do believe in this world.

1 comment:

Shony said...

Hi Amelia

The world can be a very cruel and cold place with everyone looking out for themselves. The only way to make a difference to this is to stand up for what you believe in. Just because someone else does not care about others does not mean you need to be like that to. I have been in the situation recently where I needed good friends and they walked away or turned the other cheek as we say to busy with their own lives. I was most blessed to have had a couple of other good friends who supported me and cared. I care for others and it has made me even more determined not to walk away and turn the other cheek. Your experiences shape who you are and I believe even one person can shape anothers life for the good. Care for others and they in turn will know what that difference in their life can be and in turn they will reach out and care for other people to. Shona x